“When maidens find red ears of corn,
They shall be paired before the dawn”
This golden field slopes like her chest; the fence posts mirror my own. But it’s not just breasts I lack. She has the hair, in near pubic curls, dimples like pock marks, boring blue eyes… everything the village boys could want or need. I can ride a horse so fast you’d swear I was centaur, slice a sickle through wheat as if twirling in dance, and twist a lamb in its mother so the feet slide out first and there’s profit for morning.
But to my folks, to those boys with their awkward walks and sliding eyes, stiff trousers and fiddling pockets, I’m the runt of the litter. Except when I try and talk to them about her, about the realities of living with my sister, her sniffs and whining, delicacies and deceit, they call me that but substitute with a ‘c’.
I need a mate, I need escape. My own farm to run, and a cart for the market. A bed to lie in, roll on, and share. No more making do.
So I’m making don’t, won’t and can’t.
Who they going to marry now?
By Gill Hoffs